est. Hoc aurum semetipsum decoloravit, abscondens formam Dei, et formam servi praetendens. Decoloravit et Ecclesiam, quae ait: Nolite me considerare quod fusca sim, quia decoloravit me sol (Cantic. I, 5). Ergo et posteriora ipsius in pallore auri, quae fuscum non erubuit crucis, ustionem passionis non horruit, livorem vulnerum non refugit. Etiam complacet sibi in illis, et optat novissima sua fore horum similia. Idcirco denique audit: Columba mea in foraminibus petrae, quod in Christi vulneribus tota devotione versetur, et jugi meditatione demoretur in illis. Inde martyrii tolerantia, inde illi magna fiducia apud Deum altissimum. Non est quod vereatur martyr exsanguem lividamque levare ad eum faciem, cujus livore sanatus est, gloriosam repraesentare similitudinem mortis ejus, utique in pallore auri. Quid vereatur cui etiam a Domino dicitur: Ostende mihi faciem tuam? Ad quid? Ut mihi videtur, se magis ostendere vult. Ita est: videri vult, non videre. Quid enim ille non videt? Non est ei opus ut quis se ostendat, a quo nil non videtur, nec si se abscondat. Vult ergo videri, vult benignus dux devoti militis vultum et oculos in sua sustolli vulnera, ut illius ex hoc animum erigat, et exemplo sui reddat ad tolerandum fortiorem.
is gold. This gold discoloured itself, hiding the form of God and putting forward the form of a servant. It discoloured the Church too, who says: Do not consider me that I am swarthy, because the sun has discoloured me (Song 1:6). So too her back parts are in the paleness of gold, who did not blush at the discolouring of the cross, did not shrink from the scorching of the passion, did not recoil from the bruising of the wounds. She even takes pleasure in them, and wishes her last state to be like these. Therefore at last she hears: My dove in the clefts of the rock, because it is with entire devotion that she dwells amid the wounds of Christ, and lingers there in continual meditation. From this comes the endurance of martyrdom, from this her great confidence before God most high. The martyr need not fear to lift up his bloodless and livid face to Him by Whose bruise he was healed, to present a glorious likeness of His death, namely in the paleness of gold. Why should he fear, to whom it is even said by the Lord: Show me your face? To what end? As it seems to me, He wishes rather to show Himself. So it is: He wishes to be seen, not to see. For what does He not see? He has no need that anyone show himself to Him, from Whom nothing is unseen, not even if it should hide itself. He wishes, then, to be seen; the kindly leader wishes the face and eyes of His devoted soldier to be lifted up to His own wounds, that from this He may raise up his spirit, and by His example render him stronger to endure.
8. Enimvero non sentiet sua, dum illius vulnera intuebitur. Stat martyr tripudians et triumphans, toto licet lacero corpore; et rimante latera ferro, non modo fortiter, sed et alacriter sacrum e carne sua circumspicit ebullire cruorem. Ubi ergo tunc anima martyris? Nempe in tuto, nempe in petra, nempe in visceribus Jesu, vulneribus nimirum patentibus ad introeundum. Si in suis esset visceribus, scrutans ea ferrum profecto sentiret; dolorem non ferret, succumberet, et negaret. Nunc autem in petra habitans, quid mirum si in modum petrae duruerit? Sed neque hoc mirum, si exsul a corpore dolores non sentiat corporis. Neque hoc facit stupor sed amor. Submittitur enim sensus, non amittitur. Nec deest dolor, sed superatur, sed contemnitur. Ergo ex petra martyris fortitudo, inde plane potens ad bibendum calicem Domini. Et calix hic inebrians quam praeclarus est! (Psal. XXII, 5.) Praeclarus, inquam, atque jucundus non minus imperatori spectanti, quam militi triumphanti. Gaudium etenim Domini, fortitudo nostra (II Esdr. VIII, 10). Quidni gaudeat ad vocem fortissimae confessionis? Denique et requirit eam cum desiderio: Sonet, inquiens, vox tua in auribus meis. Nec cunctabitur rependere vicem secundum suam promissionem: continuo ut se confessus fuerit coram hominibus, confitebitur et ipse eum coram Patre suo (Matth. X, 32). Rumpamus sermonem, nec enim potest finiri modo; ne sit sine modo, si cuncta quae adhuc ex proposito capitulo restant uno isto velimus sermone complecti. Ergo quod superest servemus principio alteri, ut de nostro sane et verbo et modo gaudeat sponsus Ecclesiae Jesus Christus Dominus noster, qui est super omnia Deus benedictus in saecula. Amen.
8. Indeed he will not feel his own [wounds], while he gazes on those of Christ. The martyr stands exulting and triumphant. Though his whole body be torn, and though the iron search out his sides, he looks about, not merely bravely but eagerly, to see the sacred blood well up from his flesh. Where, then, is the martyr's soul at that moment? Surely in safety, surely in the rock, surely in the bowels of Jesus, His wounds indeed lying open for it to enter. If it were in its own bowels, it would surely feel the iron searching them; it would not bear the pain, it would give way, and deny [the faith]. But now, dwelling in the rock, what wonder if it should have hardened after the manner of the rock? Nor is this strange either, if, exiled from the body, it does not feel the pains of the body. Nor does numbness bring this about, but love. For sense is subdued, not lost; pain is not absent, but it is overcome, it is despised. From the rock, then, [comes] the martyr's fortitude; from it, plainly, [he is] strong to drink the Lord's cup. And how glorious is this inebriating cup! (Ps. 22:5) Glorious, I say, and pleasant, no less to the emperor looking on than to the soldier in triumph. For the joy of the Lord is our strength (Neh. 8:10). Why should He not rejoice at the sound of so brave a confession? Indeed He even seeks it with longing: Let your voice, He says, sound in my ears. Nor will He delay to repay the debt according to His own promise: as soon as anyone shall have confessed Him before men, He too will confess that one before His Father (Matt. 10:32). Let us break off the discourse, for it cannot be finished now; lest it be without measure, if we wished to embrace in this one discourse all that still remains of the appointed chapter. Let us therefore keep what remains for the beginning of another, that by our word and by our measure the bridegroom of the Church, Jesus Christ our Lord, may indeed rejoice, Who is God blessed above all things for ever. Amen.