Semper quidem me, ex quo humeris meis ista, de qua difficilis ratio redditur, sarcina imposita est, honoris mei cura sollicitat: verumtamen multo amplius hujusmodi consideratione permoveor, quando anniversarius ejus dies memoriam pristinam renovans ejus, ita eam mihi ponit ante oculos, ut quod jam antea suscepi, sic teneam, quasi hodie suscepturus accedam. Quid autem isto reformidatur in munere, nisi ne plus nos delectet quod periculosum est in nostro honore, quam quod fructuosum est in vestra salute? Adjuver igitur orationibus vestris, ut suam sarcinam mecum ferre dignetur. Cum oratis, etiam pro vobis oratis. Haec enim mea sarcina, de qua nunc loquor, quid aliud quam vos estis? Orate mihi vere, sicut oro, ut non sitis graves. Nam Dominus Jesus sarcinam levem non diceret, nisi cum portante portaret. Sed et vos sustinete me, ut secundum praeceptum apostolicum, invicem onera nostra portemus et sic adimpleamus legem Christi (Galat. VI, 2). Qui nobiscum si non portat, succumbimus; si nos non portat, occumbimus. Ubi me terret, quod vobis sum; ibi me consolatur, quod vobiscum sum. Vobis enim sum episcopus, vobiscum sum Christianus. Illud est nomen suscepti officii, hoc gratiae; illud periculi est, hoc salutis. Denique tanquam in mari magno illius actionis tempestate jactamur: sed recolentes cujus sanguine redempti fuerimus, velut portum securitatis tranquillitate hujus cogitationis intramus; et in hoc proprie laborantes officio, in communi requiescimus beneficio. Si ergo plus me delectat, quod vobiscum emptus sum, quam quod vobis praepositus sum; tunc, ut Dominus praecipit, ero abundantius vester servus, ne ingratus sim pretio, quo vester merui esse conservus. Amare quippe debeo Redemptorem: et scio quid Petro dixit, Petre, amas me? Pasce oves meas (Joan. XXI, 17). Hoc semel, hoc iterum, hoc tertio. Interrogabatur amor, et imponebatur labor: quia ubi major est amor, minor est labor. Quid retribuam Domino pro omnibus quae retribuit mihi (Psal. CXV, 12)? Si dicam hoc me retribuere, quod pasco oves ejus; etiam hoc facio, non ego, sed gratia Dei mecum (I Cor. XV, 10). Ubi ergo retributor inveniar, cum ubique praeveniar? Et tamen quia gratis amamus, quia oves pascimus, mercedem quaerimus. Quomodo fiet istud? Quomodo convenit, Gratis amo ut pascam; et, Mercedem posco quia pasco? Nullo modo fieret hoc, nullo modo merces quaereretur ab eo qui gratis
Ever since this burden, of which a difficult account is rendered, was laid upon my shoulders, the care of my office has indeed always made me anxious: yet I am moved far more by a consideration of this kind when its anniversary day, renewing the former memory of it, so sets it before my eyes that what I undertook long before I hold as though I were coming forward today to undertake it. And what is dreaded in this office, except that what is perilous in our honour should delight us more than what is fruitful in your salvation? Let me therefore be helped by your prayers, that He may deign to bear His burden with me. When you pray [so], you pray also for yourselves. For this burden of mine, of which I now speak, what else is it but you? Pray for me truly, as I pray, that you may not be heavy. For the Lord Jesus would not call the burden light, unless He carried it together with the one who carries it. But do you too support me, that according to the apostolic precept we may bear one another's burdens and so fulfil the law of Christ (Gal. 6:2). If He does not carry with us, we sink under it; if He does not carry us, we fall dead. Where what I am for you terrifies me, there what I am with you consoles me. For for you I am a bishop, with you I am a Christian. The one is the name of an office undertaken, the other of grace; the one is [the name] of peril, the other of salvation. In short, we are tossed as on a great sea by the storm of that activity: but recalling by Whose blood we have been redeemed, we enter, through the tranquillity of this thought, as it were the harbour of safety; and labouring in this office as our own, we find rest in a benefit [held] in common. If therefore it delights me more that I have been bought together with you than that I have been set over you, then, as the Lord commands, I shall be the more abundantly your servant, lest I be ungrateful for the price by which I was found worthy to be your fellow servant. For I ought to love the Redeemer: and I know what He said to Peter, Peter, do you love me? Feed my sheep (John 21:17). This once, this again, this a third time. Love was questioned, and labour was laid on: because where love is greater, labour is less. What shall I render to the Lord for all the things that He has rendered to me (Ps. 115:12)? If I should say that I render this, that I feed His sheep; even this I do, not I, but the grace of God with me (1 Cor. 15:10). Where then shall I be found one who renders in return, when I am everywhere forestalled? And yet, because we love freely, because we feed the sheep, we seek a reward. How shall this be? How do they agree, I love freely, so that I feed; and, I ask a reward, because I feed? In no way could this be, in no way would a reward be sought from Him Who is freely