suam conscientiam, et adhuc manum porrigit ad buccellam. Numquid ego sum, Rabbi? O Juda, cui dicis, Numquid ego sum, Rabbi? jam dic, Ego sum. Non est oblivi⟨o⟩ nescientis, sed pietas miserantis. Tu, Juda, quem possedit cupiditas, omnia in te novit divinitas: sed vae tibi in quo semel periit humanitas. Omnes, inquit, scandalum patiemini in hac nocte. Et Petrus: Et si omnes scandalizati fuerint in te, ego tamen non scandalizabor. Coeperunt altercari medicus et aegrotus: ille sine aegritudine se esse putabat, ille futuram accessionem vid⟨e⟩bat. Cui Dominus ait: Paululum sequestremur, donec rei exitum comprobemus. Et Judas: Quem osculatus fuero, ipse est, tenete eum (Matth. XXVI, 31, 23, 25, 33, 48). O signum sacrilegum, o placitum fugiendum, ubi ab osculo incipitur bellum, et per pacis indicium pacis rumpitur sacramentum! Venerunt ad hortum, qui jam antea perdiderant paradisum, quaerentes Dominum Jesum Christum: egrediuntur quaerentes, qui ante praevenerant venientes. Stat Jesus, et dicunt, Jesum quaerimus. Aspicit eos ipse Salvator, quos praecedebat Judas tenebrosus ducator. Ducatum praebebat, et Magistrum non videbat, non quia Jesus mutabilis erat; erat quod erat. Lucem in tenebris quaerebant; sed lucem tenebrae non comprehenderunt. Sed audiamus vocem lucis, qui dicit tenebris venientibus cum laternis, Quem quaeritis? Illi dixerunt, Jesum. Respondit Jesus, Ego sum: audita voce abierunt prostrati in faciem caecitatis (Joan. XVIII, 4, 5, 7, 6). Sed quia lucet lux in tenebris (Id. I, 5), excitat elisos a mortuis. Iterum dicit eis, Quem quaeritis? Jesum, inquiunt. Et ait illis, Ego sum. O insensati Judaei! Interrogastis, et cecidistis; levati estis, et ingrati estis. Qua vos concutiemini comminatione vel terrore, qui ad solam cecidistis simplicem vocem? Di⟨c⟩ Israel, Venisti tenere me; quia ego defendi te a persequentibus te? Utinam teneres me, et non perderes te. In aquis parietes construxi, faculam columnae micantis erexi, Aegyptios caecitate percussi, tota nocte pro te pugnavi: factum est mane, et transisti incolumis mare. Male me quaeritis; ideo cecidistis. Ecce qualiter cadunt, qui male Dominum quaerunt.
his own conscience, and still he stretches out his hand to the morsel. Is it I, Rabbi? O Judas, you who say, Is it I, Rabbi? say now, It is I. This is not the forgetfulness of One Who does not know, but the compassion of One Who pities. You, Judas, whom greed has possessed, the Godhead knows everything in you: but woe to you, in whom humanity has perished once for all. All of you, He says, will suffer offence this night. And Peter: Even if all are offended in You, yet I will not be offended. The physician and the sick man began to dispute: the one thought himself to be without sickness, the Other saw the coming attack of fever. To whom the Lord says: Let us part for a little while, until we prove the outcome of the matter. And Judas: Whomever I kiss, it is he; seize him (Matt. 26:31, 23, 25, 33, 48). O sacrilegious sign, O compact to be shunned, where war begins with a kiss, and through a token of peace the sacrament of peace is broken! They came to the garden who had long before lost paradise, seeking the Lord Jesus Christ: those who had arrived beforehand go out seeking. Jesus stands, and they say, We seek Jesus. The Saviour Himself looks upon them, whom Judas, the dark guide, was leading. He was providing guidance, and did not see the Master, not because Jesus was changeable; He was what He was. They were seeking the light in darkness; but the darkness did not comprehend the light. But let us hear the voice of the light, Who says to the darkness coming with lanterns, Whom do you seek? They said, Jesus. Jesus answered, I am: having heard the voice they went back, thrown down on the face of their blindness (John 18:4, 5, 7, 6). But because the light shines in the darkness (John 1:5), He raises from the dead those who were struck down. Again He says to them, Whom do you seek? Jesus, they say. And He said to them, I am. O senseless Jews! You asked, and you fell; you were raised up, and you are ungrateful. By what threat or terror will you be shaken, you who fell at a single simple word? Say, Israel, have you come to seize Me because I defended you from those who pursued you? Would that you held fast to Me, and did not lose yourself. I built walls in the waters, I raised the torch of a gleaming pillar, I struck the Egyptians with blindness, all night I fought for you: morning came, and you crossed the sea unharmed. You seek Me wrongly; therefore you fell. See how they fall who seek the Lord wrongly.
2. Petri lapsus. Ejusdem fletus. Tenetur interea Dominus ad sacerdotum principem perducendus: et cum discipuli laberentur, Petrus promissor egregius coepit ambulare longius, pervenit ad principis domum. Et quia Petrum frigus urgebat, calefaciendus sollicitus assistebat. Ecce ille qui nihil infirmitatis se putabat habere, paulatim coepit ad verba medici pervenire. Negat territus Christum, qui se promiserat animam pro eo positurum. Prostravit eum anicula decrepita, quasi gravis febricula. Pressit eum lethargicus somnus, et cepit eum praeco impiger matutinus. Audit gallum cantantem, et vidit se discipulus Dominum offendisse. Sub ancilla coepit pondere vergi atque demergi: non erat qui adjuvaret, nisi de interioribus praetorii Petrum Dominus respexisset. Cum nox media declinatum subito teneret incursum, gallus cantavit, et nocte naufragus respiravit. Contum invenit fidei liberalem, quousque impelleret navem, ut in medio scopulorum portum quaereret lacrymarum. Vidit navim cordis sui sine mercibus nudam: flere coepit amare; quia Dominum suum coepit amare. Jesus pelago navigatorem terrebat, Petrus de gubernatore securitatem sperabat. Domine, inquit Petrus, ubi me dimisisti? Lumen tuum video, te adhuc non video. Lavasti pedes meos, tersisti linteo tuo; lumine tuo aperi oculos meos: quando possum videre te, nisi respexeris me? Ita permansit in amaritudine lacrymarum, quousque Dominus de portis erumperet inferorum. Petrus lacrymas fudit confessionis, et Judas osculum porrigit falsitatis.
2. The fall of Peter. His weeping. Meanwhile the Lord is held, to be led to the chief of the priests: and while the disciples were slipping away, Peter, that distinguished promiser, began to walk at a distance; he came to the house of the chief priest. And because the cold pressed upon Peter, he stood by, anxious to be warmed. See, he who thought he had no weakness began little by little to come to the words of the physician. Terrified, he denies Christ, he who had promised to lay down his life for Him. A decrepit little old woman laid him low, like a severe little fever. A lethargic sleep weighed him down, and the tireless herald of the morning caught him. He hears the cock crowing, and the disciple saw that he had offended the Lord. Under a maidservant he began to be bowed down by the weight and to sink: there was no one to help, had not the Lord looked back at Peter from the inner parts of the praetorium. When midnight, declining, suddenly checked its onslaught, the cock crowed, and in the night the shipwrecked man breathed again. He found the generous pole of faith, with which to push the ship along, so that in the midst of the rocks he might seek the harbour of tears. He saw the ship of his heart bare, without merchandise: he began to weep bitterly, because he began to love his Lord. Jesus was frightening the sailor with the sea, Peter was hoping for safety from the Helmsman. Lord, says Peter, where hast Thou let me go? I see Thy light, Thee I do not yet see. Thou didst wash my feet, Thou didst wipe them with Thy towel; with Thy light open my eyes: when can I see Thee, unless Thou look back upon me? So he remained in the bitterness of tears until the Lord should burst forth from the gates of the underworld. Peter shed tears of confession, and Judas offers a kiss of falsehood.
3. Venditionis Christi pretiu⟨m⟩.— Orate, inquit discipulis, ne intretis in tentatienem (Matth. XXVI, 41). Inquieta nox in fugam compulit piscatores. Pastor tenetur, et Petrus turbatur. Ipse pastor tristis erat, anima ejus turbatur, divinitas inc⟨on⟩cussa laetatur.
3. The price of the selling of Christ.— Pray, He says to the disciples, that you may not enter into temptation (Matt. 26:41). The restless night drove the fishermen to flight. The Shepherd is held, and Peter is troubled. The Shepherd Himself was sorrowful, His soul is troubled, the unshaken Godhead rejoices.